Thursday, September 24, 2009

a tiny little thing

Yes, I am pregnant

Five weeks today. 

We had an ultrasound this morning (it's early, I know), but because of my history my doctor deemed it necessary. 

And there it was, a tiny little thing...a perfect little home for our baby. A sac measuring right along with our timeline and sitting in a perfect spot in my uterus. Praise God.


We are ecstatic and overjoyed and nervous and afraid and overall, just a little bit crazy

I've gone back and forth about whether or not I'd post our news this early, but seriously friends, I need your prayers. I would love for you all (my wonderful blogging buddies) to be involved in this new baby's life, just as you've been involved in our journey thus far. 

We are celebrating our little May baby's life each day, enjoying this sweet time with such a wonderful miracle. But seriously, I'm struggling not to wish the days away until May.

We need your prayers. We do believe that our Father has lovingly numbered this little one's days already, and yet we still pray for as many days with him/her on this Earth. We would love to bring this baby home to raise and watch grow up, to do all things we long to do with our children. 

We are praying for comfort and rest in this time of, what's that, yes- more waiting. If my calculations are correct, then we are in week 5, which means we have 32 weeks until sweet May baby is born. I really don't want to wish away these precious pregnant days, but I don't have to tell you that pregnancy no longer holds the innocence and naivety that it once held. Frankly, I'm scared.

I want to be all bliss and joy, but there is so much worry and fear. 

Please pray that we'll rest in our Father's loving arms and listen to no other voice but His alone.

I'm sorry to spring the news in such a vague way, but I really didn't know what I was going to do, and then the words just popped out. 
That's a pregnant brain for you.

27 comments:

Ashley said...

Ebe such amazing news!!! Praying for rest for your soul and body as it prepares for this baby!

Praise God for your new little miracle!!

Love,
ashley

Heather said...

Ebe,

You don't know me, but I am a friend of Sara at hintzshappenings. I will be praying for your family and your little one. May God watch over you and bless you all.

God bless,
Heather

Mandi said...

Another lurker here. I won't pretend to know exactly what you're going through, but I have a small idea after experiencing 3 miscarriages myself, and I'm praying for a healthy and peaceful pregnancy and baby for you!

Lindsey said...

Ebe,

This news makes my day!!!! Wow- how exciting!! I can definitely understand your feelings of fear and anxiety. You believe in something that will ease those concerns, so lay your worries on that doorstep. I'll be sending you positive vibes & encouraging thoughts very often- and I sincerely hope that you're able to find peace. I'm looking forwards to posts, pictures, and updates as you & your husband take this journey!!

Congratulations!!!! :)
Lindsey in AZ

Shelly said...

I've been following your blog for a while now. I couldn't be happier for you, congrats! I will be praying that you have a healthy and happy 9 months!!

Anna said...

Yay for everything looking how it should! Hugs & Prayers.

Love,
Anna

Emily said...

Yea! Again, I will hope and pray that you get to raise the little one, and never have to lose another child.

Traci said...

Is giddy the right word? I think it just may be! I know it's still a long time to wait...but I am praying for for the precious miracle of ordinariness over the next 9 months - you know, classic, healthy, standard text book stuff here! Deep, deep peace to you my love!

Greta said...

I'm another one you don't know. Honestly, I don't even remember how I found your blog.

Anyway, what wonderful, wonderful news! I understand you being cautious but am so excited and encouraged that you are able to be excited too! I'll be praying for many wonderful, pregnant days ending with a healthy baby!

Beth said...

Ebe,

I can't remember how I found your blog, but I've been praying for you two for some time and am so excited that you decided to share your news! More prayers on their way:)

Beth from Ohio

Rachel said...

Yay! How exciting to be a part of answered prayer for another baby! I thank God and praise Him for giving you this precious gift.

I know the pain of fear and worry and will pray daily for peace for you, Ebe. I want you to enjoy this pregnancy as much as possible but knowing how it feels, I will also pray for time to go quickly for you guys. I feel blessed to be able to walk this journey with you.

As a reassurance, we bought a doppler this pregnancy so that worry wouldn't be a constant, though it's still there. We got a good one on Amazon for about $90 if it's something you can afford. Being able to sit down and find Caleb's heartbeat when I'm not feeling much movement, has brought such peace. Something to think about!

Always praying!
Love,
Rachel

Katie said...

Ebe

I found your wonderful amazing blog through Loved Like the Church. I read through it's entirety in a few days and cried every step of the way. I have thought of you, Chris, Owen and the other little ones many many times but have been to shy to post. When talk of another pregnancy came up I prayed for you guys and kept checking in. I'm so excited for you guys and will pray for peace, rest, and joy in this pregnancy. Stay well and take good care.

Katie

sjefferson said...

"From the fullness of grace we have received one blessing after another." John 1:16

Ebe...I rejoice with you in this newest blessing like it's my own! I have prayed so specifically for you and will continue to do so. Be strong in the Lord and think on His past goodness and mercy! But continue to be honest on your blog...it will give us all great ways to pray for you.

I'm so excited to be pregnant with you and I cannot wait for our little ones to meet one day and hear how we've been praying for them!

Love you friend!
Sarah

Ruth said...

Ebe,
I'm so excited for you and so happy! I will pray that your time of being pregnant would be one of growing love for your baby and growing trust in God's love and plan for you.
xx
Ruth

Laura Ripley said...

friend of Sarah's. I have gladly been praying for Ashley and Sarah during there trials. I am also going to cover you and this precious new life in prayer.

lovedlikethechurch said...

This news made my day! I couldn't wait to tell my husband last night when he came home from class. We are praying for you, Chris and your beautiful May baby!

Philippians 4:6-7

Rebecca said...

Oh, Ebe! My heart both is buoyed and sunk at the same time for you. I know about the innocence you have lost & how much fear and worry you must have. I really don't know what to say. I am so excited, happy, nervous, and anxious for you. I will pray, pray, pray, knowing that His will for this May baby has already been written.

Much, much love to you.

Susan said...

!!!
Great!

Definitely praying for you guys & the new bean.

Sara said...

Yeah Ebe, praise God, I am so so so happy for you guys. What an answer to prayer. I have thought about getting a doppler too... if the Lord choses to bless us with another... I think that would give me some reassurance too. Ebe I completely understand the anxiousness, I will be praying for the Lord to surround you with peace and joy in your heart. I will pray that you can rest in Him each day of this pregancy. Please keep us abreast so I can know how to pray or for what specifically friend. So happy for you and Chris... what great news:)
Sara

Kate said...

Congratulations!! I'm yet another one that you don't know but I am so thrilled for you guys:) Know that I will be praying for you through this pregnancy as well as your new, sweet little one and your husband too! Your blog has been such an encouragement to my heart and faith. Even though I've not met you in person I am SO thankful to God for you!
Kate

dorothe said...

You have my prayers, my thoughts, my heart and all my good wishes for a healthy and full pregnancy. Love, Dorothe

Zil said...

So happy. Praying for you and your bean!

Monika said...

Wow, wonderful news!!! Congratulations!!! I will pray for you and I´m really happy for you!
Greetings from Europe :-)

Bethany said...

Congratulations on your beautiful news! Praying for you.

paige said...

w.o.w.
Such a tender vulnerable time. i'm glad you shared - i'm a stranger, but your passion for Jesus builds my faith. i hope the pregnancy flies by - joyously - without anxiety, full of hopeful anticipation.

Mrs. MK said...

Ebe, I have been away from my computer for almost two weeks, and what joy I find here!! Of course, the pain and freaking out fear is there, too....but all for giving to Him, right?

I am hoping for a tiny little thing of my own, soon. I am excited and terrified at the same time....I so admire you for pushing on in this painful life.

Emily said...

Praise Jesus! Praying for your heart to be close to Him during these next months!