Monday, March 15, 2010

Writer's block

I'm having a hard time finding anything else to write about beyond the fear. So, I don't write.
But if I did, it would look like this:

Monday- was scared. Prayed a lot.

Tuesday- had a hard day. Lots of anxious feelings... what ifs swirling in my head.

Wednesday- was really scared. Stayed in all day.

Thursday- battled with the 'crazy' thoughts in my head.

Friday- TGIF. and was scared.

Saturday- had a pretty good day actually, busied myself so as to not think about the fear.

Sunday- had a down day, was scared, made myself go to Church.

Monday- Monday again. anxious.

13 comments:

Freya said...

Cast your cares on Him, Ebe, because He care for (both) of you! 1 Peter 5:7.

3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles. - 2 Corinthians 1:3.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

I'm praying for you =).

Kelly said...

I'm praying for you and Hannah over these next few weeks. (((HUGS))) I cannot even begin to imagine how difficult things must be for you.

Sara said...

Ebe, I am praying against all of your fear and anxious thoughts... although I know it is totally normal. Just know that you are being prayed over by the kids and I every morning.

See, I am doing a new thing. Now it springs up, do you not peceeive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. Isaiah 43:19

Praying for you Ebe!
Sara

-clevergirl said...

You just explained my weeks exactly, **HUG**

Ruth said...

Wishing you joy that's louder than the fear!

elfinwynter said...

How can such a few short weeks take so long?

I, of course have no great pearls of wisdom to offer - I don't handle my own(much more insignificant)fears and anxiety very well...:) BUT...

I am praying for you, for our sweet Hannah and for Chris. PEACE: beautiful, sweet, and so elusive outside of our Almighty Father.

I love you all so very much...and that doesn't even measure next to the Father's love for you.

Chris said...

You are so precious to me Babe.
PAPA

Ashley said...

I wish there was something I could say or do to ease your heart and mind. Can't wait to hug you in person!

love,
ashley

Jennifer said...

Ebe,

Try focusing on the "what is" rather than the "what ifs". Deuteronomy 31:8 says, "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." So everytime a "what if" pops in your head, replace it with God's Word. I'm praying for you and can't wait to see your sweet little girl!! :o)

Love,
Jenn

Mrs. MK said...

Ebe, I am so with you. These days are a battle, each and every minute, to just try to live outside of the fear. It caught up with me this morning as I saw pictures of my dear friend's new daughter, born healthy and safely yesterday evening. I just want that SO bad, and yet can't bring myself to believe sometimes that it's even possible.

My prayers are with you, and I hope that this week goes a little better. Don't worry about writing, or not writing, just do whatever helps. We will all still be praying, either way. Love!

Ebe said...

Thank you thank you thank you.

Jennifer...it's funny that you should write this verse because it's exactly what Chris has been telling me lately. He wrote it on a post it note a few weeks ago and stuck it to our dresser.
I needed to hear it again.

love you all!

heather ryan morse said...

praying that you can find peace in the present reality..and allow the Lord to carry your through. i love you, friend.

Miranda said...

Ebe,

Unfortunetly that's how the hours pass for a mom in SPAL. I have complete faith that we will be holding precious Hannah in our arms in just less than 2 months. you are in my prayers. hang in there--this time will feel very vague once your princess is here filling all your time, heart, arms and energy!

Love you,
Miranda