Everything feels so surreal. Like a dream, a fantastic dream... something different than you thought but still absolutely wonderful and completely perfect.
Chris made me promise that I wouldn't stay on here long trying to articulate everything I'm thinking and feeling. It would take hours. Probably a whole day. I'm not very good at napping during the day... there's so much to love about having her home with us and I want to enjoy it all, so when you sleep no more than 2 hours at a time at night (ah, 2 hours), there's little more precious than resting with our baby girl. Speaking of, she's sleeping right next to me, all swaddled and cozy. Pink perfection, so much like her big brother. I'm so glad you all can see it too. She's her own person for sure, and she also looks so much like him. A smaller version if you can believe it. Even though she weighed more at birth, his measurements were still bigger than hers.
We've been home since Friday afternoon. She got to come home with us!!!! I think we were all pretty shocked when they told us how well she was doing and how even for a 35 weeker, how strong and healthy and feisty she was- wirey is what her pediatrician called her.
We are so so thankful and I think a part of me is still in shock, trying to process that she's here and home with us and that, even with all the craziness surrounding her birth, she's so healthy and strong.
I don't think I can do into detail right now about everything that proceeded her birth, but let's just say, it was crazy and scary and weird and not how I thought things would happen. But it was God's providence that she would be born on April 27 and that she would turn transverse and need to be born through c-section (she always did love her mommy hammock).
Around lunchtime Tuesday afternoon, I was laboring through some not fun pitocin contractions (making some progress) when my doctor comes to check me and he feels what he thinks is a head with an arm right at my cervix. Not a fun or good way to deliver. He checks with an ultrasound and she has completely flipped (in just under a day) from being head down to being very transverse with her little butt and feet at my cervix. Right away he orders a c-section and things go very fast from there.
The c-section was not an experience I enjoyed at all or would ever voluntarily do, but I am so thankful for the advance in technology and medicine that allows us to deliver this way.
In labor, before we knew she had turned sideways.
The family getting to see Miss Hannah in all her glory. Apparently it was quite a show.
Getting my first good look at my little girl. After the section, Hannah Mae went straight to the NICU where the nurses (sort of) argued over where to check her over- the special care nursery or the regular one and thankfully, she didn't need the NICU and was able to come and see me about 2 hours after her birth. It was the longest 2 hours ever, but since I was kind of out of it, I didn't realize until later really how long it was until I got to hold her. Her Papa was with her the whole time, so I knew she was in good hands.
Seriously, if can believe this, my dad was admitted to the hospital on Saturday morning due to arterial flutter and had to have a procedure done the day I gave birth to Hannah Mae. His sweet sweet nurses snuck him over to see her on her birthday and all three of us were actually discharged on the same day! He's doing great, by the way.
My first outfit!
Sweet little Elijah and Hannah Mae... precious Lovenox babies.
Finally at home... enjoying our sweet family time.
Her first doctor's visit. Yay for a great report! She has only lost one ounce since leaving the hospital and is doing really well. She's now 4 lbs 2 ounces and is slowly learning how to breastfeed. I've been pumping and giving her a bottle as well as trying to encourage breastfeeding. So far, I think she's doing really great even though we don't always have success.
I can't thank you all enough for all the prayers and encouragement you've given us. It means more than I can say and if I could say it- it still wouldn't be enough. Thank you so much.
Praise God, he is faithful.