You're free and that's all I'm trying to say. If you weren't free then Jesus wouldn't be who he says he is.
Yesterday I got into a little discussion about asking God 'why?' and his sovereignty. I left feeling so sad and perplexed. I stepped into the discussion because I felt like the freedom of the Gospel wasn't being clearly displayed. And I never want anyone to feel like (especially after something difficult like a death of a loved one) there is no freedom to ask God 'why?' or to go to the Father with our questions.
We have such great freedom to go to our Father in Heaven and sit in his lap and cry our eyes out asking 'why?'
He loves us.
Yes, when Jesus comes back and makes all things right, there may not be a single question on our lips. It may not matter at all why. And the whys may be a part of God's secret things that we can never know.
But... but that doesn't mean that at some point in our lives those questions aren't important to us. Those questions can pull us into a deeper relationship with God. They can cause us to run to him and fall into his lap, a sacred place.
It is by the Holy Spirit that the burning we feel from the questions starts to fade. It is not by someone telling us not to ask, just to 'let go and let God'. It is not by someone who tells us that the why is not for us to know. There is great freedom to ask why... to ask anything. It's true, we may never get an answer. We may never feel a peace about the why.
And if there is no answer, no peace about the whys.... in the end, we're still sitting in his lap, talking to our Father and we can find peace and rest in who He is.